reasons not to have a girlfriend: reason #3

"i feel this need
to be self
deprecating, to
lower your
expectations on
impact...becaus
e if you are
going to be a
person who
knows me it
means full
frontal
honesty...not
just what i think
you can handle,
not just
everything but
my dark and
treasured
secrets...i want
to get
disappoinment
out of the way. i
want my own
deconstruction,
and i want you to
be there when
the smoke
clears, and how
else will i know
unless i destroy
pleasant
falsehood now,
before your very eyes?"


reason not to have a girlfriend, number three:

i am a pleasant falsehood that i can't bear to destroy